Recently I
read in a news article the statement, “Think It-Ink It-Link It”. The author was suggesting that we think
about what we might do differently in a specific situation, write
down a goal, and link strategies to complete the goal.
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| Horntoad Gazzette-Letters from Jim Owen to his family 1978-1979. Colored tabs for entries about specific children. |
During the same time period I finished re-reading the compilation of “Horntoad Gazette” letters written by
James A. Owen, my dad, during the final two years of his earthly life
(1978-79). My mom felt they were
important and in her preface to the compilation wrote: “I
hope you will all take time to read—and enjoy….Jim had a great sense of
humor—even with all the struggle with his deteriorating physical
condition. They are valuable for
re-reading because they reflect his beliefs and values.” This was Dad's way of trying to keep the family close even though we were living far from him.
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| Owen home under construction (1979) in Leeds, Utah |
Now, over 35 years
later, I find myself re-reading the letters documenting my family’s challenges and
I wish I could have a “do-over”. As I “Think It-Ink It-Link It” about this time
period, I sincerely wish I could have involved myself more in their lives. I was pretty selfishly wrapped up in my own
personal world 1100 miles away.
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| Williamette View Chiropractic Clinic (Owen Home 1968-1973) |
The years
1973-1979 were challenging times in the history of the James A. and Maxine Owen
family. They sold their Chiropractic
practice in SE Portland in 1973 and moved to Leeds, UT hoping to build a “Dream
Home” that would become a nice place for their large family to come and visit
them. The dream didn’t quite go as planned. They ended up living two years in small
trailers, then moved into a framed but unfinished home, survived a winter
insulated by cardboard, and just kept working on finishing the house over a
period of about four difficult years.
For the last couple years, Dad was on
dialysis three times per week and with Mom as driver they were making many five hour trips from So. Utah to
the Veteran’s Administration in Salt Lake City for treatment, check ups, and
later receiving training on how to use dialysis equipment in their Leeds, UT
home. Dad had time to write in both his
journal and in these letters to the family as he sat in the chair for
treatments.
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| Trailer that was "home" in 1974. |
I find that
during this difficult time, I was not very helpful. We lived far away in Redmond, WA in these
days before Skype and Facetime. Long distance phone calls were expensive. It
was hard for me to be of much help and I was basically clueless at how tough
life in Leeds really was for my family. I was busy with two and then three small children (Allison, David, and Tamarah).
Looking back, I am especially grateful to my sisters (Louise and Sandy)
and Aunts and Uncles and their families (Rex Moulton, Evelyn McDougal, Delcie
O’Grady, Velma Rohman) who all provided much needed support for Mom and Dad during
this period of trials.
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| Owen Siblings: Delcie, James, Velma. The sisters visited their brother in Leeds, UT. |
There was also the support
and concern from the Leeds, UT LDS Ward family:
High Priest Quorum members, Home Teachers, Visiting Teachers, Young Men
and Women Leaders. They came and
finished taping and mudding the dialysis treatment room, they helped do weed
control, they laid the floor tile, and supported however they could. I'm sure it was difficult for my Dad not to be able to put in the long hours he wanted to because of his declining energy.
“Our ability to endure to the end in righteousness will be in
direct proportion to the strength of our testimony and depth of our conversion…
The challenges we face, if successfully endured, will be for our own ultimate
good” (Elder Richard J. Maynes, Strength to Endure, LDS Conference Oct.
2013). I think that looking back on Dad’s history, we can see that he was able
to endure his challenges because of his great faith.
To the Prophet
Joseph Smith, the Lord said: “My son,
peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a
small moment; And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high” (D&C 121:7-8). Dad seemed to have a larger perspective of
the “small moment” in time represented by earth life. He saw his life’s end coming to a close and
hoped that he would perhaps gain 5 or more years with the help of the dialysis
machine.
My perspective
is not the same as the perspective of my youngest sister who lived through
these last four trying years. For her,
it was a time of growing up too quickly.
Age 10-14 during these tough years, she was often left “alone” in the
big unfinished home, as Mom and Dad left for Salt Lake for treatment and her
older brothers were gone during the school year. Neighbors would watch out for her, but it was
still a time of great loneliness.
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| Family gathered for Donald's High School Graduation in Roy, UT |
Three of my
brothers were living in Roy, UT during two years with the Scott Taysom family
who provided room and board and helped them through high school years in
exchange for labor in their family brick laying business. The boys would come south to Leeds, UT to
help work on the house when they could. From
their perspective they too felt somewhat abandoned. Mom and Dad were just doing the best they
could to survive.
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| Owen Family in 1978. Mom, Donald, Teresa, David, Dad. |
The home was
big. Something like 22 rooms to frame, do electrical, plumbing, wallboard, paint, flooring, etc. On October 12, 1978 Dad
wrote: “We not only dream of this
mansion we are to build but of others of greater magnitude during the Millenium
and eternally, so all of us can continue to exist as a family together. But the next one I’m going to switch places
with Maxine and she can be the supervisor and I’ll do most of that work-that
will truly be heaven for me.”
On November 29,
1978 he wrote: “What joy it brings to my soul to see you kids being better
parents than Mom and Dad were (or at least Dad). I want you all to know that it will only be ‘the
day after tomorrow’ that 25 years will have passed by and many of you will be Grandparents
and say ‘Where have the years gone?’ but one thing I humbly pray, that none of
you will be guilty and have to say that ‘If I had it to do over again, I would
spend more time with my kids.’”
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| Framing begins in 1975. |
He goes on to
counsel us to teach children to work and be a good example, never miss FHE,
keep the Sabbath Day holy, not to use TV as a babysitter and pay the Lord first
his 10%. He suggests “starting a Family Testimony
Meeting, once a month” promising that it “will bring the family together
spiritually like few other experiences.”
He wrote of his
rich heritage on Jan 22, 1979 and then added:
“Maxine and I have done more than our parents, because we had greater
opportunities and the fullness of the Gospel to help us. Now you have all had greater blessings and
opportunities than your parents, so the Lord expects so much more from
you. And nothing gives me (us) greater
joy than to see all of you doing so well with your families. …Make your home a heaven.”
Ralph loaned
Mom and Dad a camera in 1979 to use during their trip to Nebraska to attend
Dad’s 40th High School Reunion.
They took over 150 photos documenting Dad's earlier life and Teresa helped label all of them. (This was in the days before digital photos
and they could only afford to get prints made of a couple of rolls of film at a
time.) Dad first tried the camera out in
May of 1979: “We already have one (historic photo for our history)—where it
first started-Salt Lake City County Courthouse, where we got our (marriage)
license. That was when all of you kids
were hollering “whoopee” in the spirit world awaiting your turn to receive the
blessings of mortality. Don’t you
remember? What’s the matter with your
memories?”
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| Salt Lake City/County Building where James and Maxine got their marriage license in 1948. |
The trip to be
with classmates of his Lincoln, Nebraska “Class of 1939” was a highlight of his
last year. His summary was written in an
extra long letter on June 17, 1979: “I saw no one there that could come within
touching distance of being as blessed as we have been in our family unit and to
have it expand with our fine sons-in-law and beautiful daughter-in-law—truly we
are the most wealthy of anyone that I know.”
One 24th
of July, Dad watched as Mom was dancing at the community Pioneer Day celebration. He wrote:
“Your mother is a beautiful dancer,
she enjoys it so much. As I watched her
dancing, tears came to my eyes, and when she came back I told her (that) at the
first available opportunity after the resurrection I would learn to dance and
take her to all the dance she wanted to go to.”
On September
4, 1979 Dad wrote about the “dinner parties” they were hosting: “We
are getting to be real socialites—having so many dinner parties! It feels so good to have a nice place. It has been four years since we moved onto
the property into a trailer, and at times it has been most frustrating, but
always looking forward to the completed house has given me something to think
about, which has helped tremendously.”
It was ten
days later, September 14, 1979 that Dad died.
He was only 58 years old. Mom wrote up a detailed summary of the cause of his death and the family gathering at the time of Dad's funeral (See her entry written on September 23, 1979). In Dad's life he overcame the loss of his father (age 7), polio just as he was beginning his teaching career (age 22), family opposition to his religion, the challenge of becoming a Chiropractor before it was generally accepted, a battle over big government control in his life, and on going poor health (diabetes/kidney failure). As hard as his life was, I believe it was all part of God's plan for James Owen and his family to grow and develop during this life.
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| Dr. Owen working on legal brief for fight with US Government over Social Security Taxation |
President
George Q. Cannon reminds us that God has prepared each of us for the tests
we face in mortality. “There is not one
of us but what God’s love has been expended upon. There is not one of us that
He has not cared for and caressed. There is not one of us that He has not
desired to save, and that He has not devised means to save. There is not one of
us that He has not given His angels charge concerning. We may be insignificant
and contemptible in our own eyes, and in the eyes of others, but the truth
remains that we are the children of God, and that He has actually given His
angels—invisible beings of power and might—charge concerning us, and they watch
over us and have us in their keeping.” (See quote in context by President
Eyring, “To My Grandchildren”, LDS Conference, October 2013).
As
I “Think
It-Ink It-Link It” I hope to learn from my dad’s example of faith and endurance. Jim Owen, like the Apostle Paul, was
able to say:
“I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith: Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me at that day” (2 Timothy 4:6-8).
“I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith: Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me at that day” (2 Timothy 4:6-8).
